📷Fernando Paz

Jealousy

If your not a jealous person than skip over this blog 😎

There is something about negative energy. Bad people I can smell them from a mile away. I cannot stand there behavior. I cannot mix well with evil I feel sick inside. I've been this way about energies since I can remember. There are two particular women that I do not like that seemed to latch a little to close for my comfort to my husband. Naturally as my bond grew closer with my husband those latches were weakened. Women this is for you if your man is to close to other women I mean to friendly all the time you have to stand your ground. I don't mean take those women and scream at them or scream at your man but keep a watchful eye. I allow my husband to talk and converse with women and old friends and coworkers his chain isn't that right but don't let females to close. This world is so bad and jealously is so strong. Some people will do anything to destroy your marriage they will even pretend that things that aren't there are there. Know your mans habits. This goes for women too. I know I talk to other men and women nonstop at work. Usually, as a model I am meeting so many different men and women at the work different clients have me do in Manhattan it becomes routine to be kind and welcoming and to discuss the brands I represent. It's important to build a strong trust relationship and to always be open and honest. Tell each out who you can trust and who you think is a little flakey in your friend groups. Be on the same page on who to tell to much to and who to be pleasant with and tell very little too. So many people will try to put out your fire. Jealously, envy and hurtful people live in this world to destroy the good and they enjoy doing it. Be strong in your relationships. You can still struggle that will happen from time to time. You get so jealous because your spouse is on the phone with the opposite sex and they are laughing or your spouse compliments another women but didn't even notice how long you spent to get ready just for them. Pray about it this world is a test and it's not easy. Never never never give up. We all have struggles of different types I'm just sharing mine. 

Day 1: Writing again..

Day 1

Back to Blogging

I met this wonderful lady on the train today. She told me she was listening to dialogue of my conversation between my friend Kim and I. We were talking on the phone. I got off the phone and we got to talking about the sheet I was filling out in my lap. The sheet was full of numbers from my promotion at JFK. The numbers contained tally of the daily amount of consumer interactions and tastings of Absolute Elyx. I had a good day unlike the day before which was awful. Today went perfectly. I met a lot of amazing and inspirational people who motivated me to keep going for my dreams. I believe in myself and I have this positive energy surrounding me. I love everything about life I feel as if for the first time I'm Alive..I wake up in the morning and I ask myself what can I do for others. What can I do for myself. How can I give to the world around me. What can I leave behind? I want to make an impression on those around me. I want to make everyone's day better. I want to love others with the love of Christ. I miss behind spiritual and I have that love of Christ in my heart and it feels so amazing. I am so happy to be alive in Christ. There is no better feeling in this Earth. It's like I'm floating when he is on my side. Nothing can hurt me. Not the hurt I felt before. People are drawn to me. I want to stay on this spiritual high. Its one of the best feelings you can have in life. Pure Joy. The joy seen in a child a childlike love. Did you know that many people on this Earth never feel this joy through Christ. I was reading an article a friend shared online earlier today about how Christians are constantly being persecuted killed murdered bought and sold as sex slaves due to their religion...punished for there faith there love for Christ. Reminds me of what Christ did for us. He died for us and his death was painful. His father God sent his one and only son Jesus Christ to this Earth born of Mary to die for our sins so that we could be saved and have eternal life one day in heaven with our Lord and savior in heaven...Amen

Love your enemy but don't put up with shit

Day 2

Well no Kevin at work today at T8. Which I'm grateful for. Working with him is like working with the Devil himself. I hate how evil some people are. Jealously is such a sick thing. I can feel how jealous he is of how happy I am so he and another girl who works with me. Wasn't on site yesterday always pick at me. They feel intimated by me. I'm use to this feeling between me and my coworkers. It reminds me of my days at Michael Kors. I don't miss those days. I'm currently on the 2 train heading into my last day this week at T8. I have next week off from here. Which I am so grateful for. !!!  I am on the train still and I can't sleep. I took a 5 minute break from writing this. The lady on the train whom I happened to at next to yesterday inspired me to write everyday for one hour. I haven't yet been able to write for a whole hour but I will eventually. I run out of things to write about after 20 minutes. Currently my handbag is full of snacks for work that I purchased for $3.50 total. Which is a steal if you ask me. Let me take a photo. I ate the pinwheels already. But my powdered donuts, cheesy puffs & vanilla wafers are still here ready for some serious snacking 😆😆😆. I am thinking to start a blog to share with everyone. I don't know how interesting you will find my life but I'm doing this for me. Still not to Times Square. My commute to work this event is a little over two hours * 2 twice a day. I have to stop drinking coffee before I get on the train. Coffee has me so hyper I cannot take my train nap. Different people keep sitting next to me. The first guy had a nice watch in this guy is smaller he takes up less space. His coat is glowing white. Speaking of glowing coats. That reminds me of a story. I'm going to title this story 💜How I met my Husband😘💜🎬🎬🎬

How I met my Husband

I was walking alongside the B&D line at 59 street Columbus circle. I had been in New York going on my sixth day. I had ventured out on the subway alone for the first time. I had a map and it was cold out. Late January or early February of 2013. I was unsure how to arrive back home and was always direction impaired. I asked people for directions everyone was so busy and no one would respond.. One person I asked answered but didn't look up keep in mind I was holding a map and this man in a white glowing coat was the only person who answered my request. He told me I would have to transfer at another station and somehow we ended up drinking coffee across from the subway station and we were inseparable since that day. I'm so glad I never was good with directions. I still call him when I'm lost sometimes and can't figure out where I am